Now what

The uncertainty is here. All the while I was eagerly awaiting the day when I finish my DA and embark on a new journey…my future education. Now that my exam is through, suddenly I feel lost. Qualified yes, confident…well quite. Future, not dark but hazy.

While I was still in Nair, the future was still as hazy as it is now. But atleast I belonged somewhere. Now while my security blanket of belonging is gone, the vision ahead is not clear…atleast not yet.

If someone were to ask me what is one thing that I most want right now, covet the most right now is the knowledge and assurance that my chance to further education is secured. That I would get into a good institute for my DNB as soon as possible. That all will be fine and I won’t be left groping about in the dark. Life has given me all that I have wanted, always after a small wait, as a surprise when things seemed not to be going too well. Is this one more of those times……..iska jawab to samay hi dega!!